January 29, 2013
When I started writing here I hoped that something would catch. I didn't have a grand plan or strategy to create the perfect blog. My writing here tends to reflect and focus on the moment. I put time and editing into my posts but I am not good at planning ahead and executing each thought or photo to perfection. In many aspects of my life, I am a planner, but in my creative endeavors I usually succumb to the process rather than preparing everything beforehand and showing only perfect results. I have always hoped, though, that I could figure out the right way to reach people and create something meaningful that might draw them in.
As I have continued to write here and struggled to create meaningful connections I have often said to myself and others that I keep this site mostly for myself. That this is a place to practice, since I always have more to learn and don't foresee finding the perfect process or results any time soon. Sometimes, though, I say this to feel better about the lack of readers and community around this space. I have always been the type of person to have a few very close friends rather than many acquaintances and I guess that is reflected in this blog, as well. Still, I sincerely appreciate anyone who visits or takes notice of this space.
Sometimes I want to scrap everything and start over, erasing the posts that don't measure up to what I expect from myself now. But I am too far from being a perfectionist and I know the process will continue. I am also reminded that I don't the worry about making each post perfectly photographed and precisely written to keep me from creating. While striving to improve and do better is an important part of the creative process, I am eager to spend more time writing, experimenting and seeing what happens here. I know this is not the best way to build a world famous blog or get a book deal but I am looking forward to what I can make of it.